Ups and Downs

 Time flies, when life is just passing you by and your still in the same place. Heavy feet and heavy eyes. I wake up sometines and even though I'm happy and thankful to be alive, I still think what is this all worth. Just repetitive day after day.
With that said Easter was wonderful had some family come spend the day it was really great.Just what I needed. Togetherness<3  We even did a "big kid" Easter egg hunt :p 
Also Im working on finally following my dreams and going to Culinary School :) Cooking is one of my passions. I love to cook for anyone and make them smile. Thats how I show my love tee hee. Luckily there's a awesome culinary school bout 15 min from my home. I was hesitant to wait and enroll after transplant. But waiting for transplant looks like a longer wait than I thought. SO Im thinking of attempting to go to school, hopefully I can do it, even with all my sickness and fatigue somedays, and dialysis. 
Also the doctors said they wouldn't let my Aunt be my donor......hence the wait longer. They said something with one the tests showed that she she would not be a suitable candidate....so we are going to go to another hospital and get a second opinion. Life has twists and turns, I am not sure what will happen next. But I know something good will happen, everything happens for a reason. Even if it looks hopeless. When I heard the news I just got this big lump in my stomach, the docs has acting like this was it, then suddenly it was like ROADBLOCK. 
Dialysis is going pretty well, have not gotten sick in along time during treatment. 
Sleeping has become a new-sense again, the sleeping pill I am on seems to have no effect on me anymore. Other than that just hanging at home with the dogs, baking and cookin, taking the dogs to the dog park. And now that the weather is warm and sunny, I started pulling weeds to get a nice garden in place.
Just pray that I get a donor soon. Much love to all <3

how time gets away

Sorry for not writing. Its been a wave of things going on. On top of its been just a time where I have alot to say, but at the same time. I dont feel like talkin. So many questions, and no answers. I'll fill everyone in probably tomorrow, or later tonight. 

Donate Life-Blessed-Waiting

Well I ended up getting the cold everyone had. Doing much better now, cold symptom wise, lil sniffles. Kidney wise still waiting waiting waiting! The docs are still doing more tests on my aunt,she was here again this last week for more timed blood test. Now more waiting. She and I are both anxious  :p Did you know that 113,786 people are waiting for some sort of transplant? Today I went to a Donate Life Meeting. I am really involved with different kidney organizations, and organ donor awareness organizations. I just really want to get the word out. Organ donation has been a big part of my life and my families life. WIthout organ donors my brother and father and I  might not be here .We were all blessed to have a familiy member donate.