Low low low

(<---- I just like that song :P) Christmas is just around the corner :) I just love all the decorations my house is looking pretty cute inside hehe. I was really hoping I would have my match by this time and be having a transplant by Christmas :( hey I can have high hopes. I am very determined to get the word out about my needing a kidney, as well as about organ donation in general.
In the mean time dialysis is going pretty smooth, have not had any problems getting sick, well for the most part lol. Had a few time where my blood pressure dropped then I felt like I wanted to drop to the floor ...not good. Even had to spend a whole day on the couch one day because it was too low and every time I tried to walk I seriously just about blacked out. So I am slowly being taken off blood pressure medications. Thats a big deal because my bp used to be so high that I was on five to six medications and some days that did not even help. Urg well not much else going on  right now dialysis,dialysis,dialysis lol . Good nights loves :p

Princesses,dragons, Kights and Witches.

       When we are children we read lots of fairy tails about Princesses and evil witches, about Princes coming to the rescue and far away adventures.   I used to wish I was a mermaid Princess :P  That I would be able to have amazing underwater adventures and be the most beautiful mermaid princess. Lol of course even though I knew it was impossible it was still fun to imagine.  To imagine a life so amazing, being unstoppable and to always have the courage to go on so many dangerously amazing adventures. As a child most of us do not think we will have to face so many real dangers. 

           But in a way life has become like a storybook, just a different type. There is the evil I have to overcome and there is a hero, but no knight in shining armor; that parts on in the books :P Im the heroine and the princess; and I have to fight my battles day and knight. I look those nightmares and villains dead in the eyes and tell them "you will not win today." Its a constant battle sometimes deciding whether or not I am gonna give up and let the evil win.  I sometimes have those thoughts to just want to give up cause thats the easy way out. I mean why take the scary path through the dark wood crossing paths with unthinkable dangers? And I just think to myself at the end of this long, very long dark tunnel there is a glimmer of light. I can not see the light it so far sometimes,but I can feel it. 
Its hard sometimes but we all just got to think to ourselves that its all worth it,  the path may not be clear right now,but it has a reason. And we all have dragons to sleigh at sometime or another.  No one can defeat it for us, you and only you can conquer it. So always have hope and be as brave as you can, just never give up.

So thats my lil poetic fairy tale metephor :P  ug I should really get some rest, I am not tired at all but its already 3am and I suppose the Princess does need to attempt to get some rest. This is when being Sleeping Beauty would come in handy haha.  Btw I take that Princess bit to heart still even at 26 hahah. Hey whatever gets me through my day. SO I guess I bid you all a Good Night and  Good Morning <3