So very very exciting news, so my lil puppy that my husband and I had, I sadly had to leave her in Tennessee with some friends until I could find a way to fly her to California. How I miss my lil pup.Shes everything to me from TN/KY shes was prolly the best thing from my last two and half years. My husband and I searched and searched petfinder.com for a puppy for me as a companion, because he would be deploying very soon. Omg when I saw my lil Lily I just had to have her. My husband drove us almost 5 hours to go get her from a shelter. It was meant to be, because the minute I opened that shelter door she came running into my arms. her and I we so strongly bonded. The last two years she has been with my almost 24-7.When I got sick, that week or so in the hospital had been the longest her and I had been apart. And I was devastated that having to leave to California, would mean that I couldn't be with her. And I tried to bring her on the plane with me, but she was too big :(
But I promised my Lily that I would not forget her and bring her home to me when I could get the money to. Finally that time has come.
Its like a mother apart from her baby, lol. Hey don't laugh. Shes not just a dog shes a part of my family. And a gift from God, because without her, I would prolly have had a lonely life alone. I cant wait to snuggle and give you lots of lil doggie kisses. <3
Life has topsy turvied a millions times over and over. It hurts to think about the life Iv lead. It makes me cry to think about a person dyin on life support, alone so scared and unknowing if anyone knew she was hurt. She thought she would die in that bed and not get to see her loved ones ever again. It hurts to think about someone being in that situations, it makes me cry even at this moment, to imagine someone being like that, all her neighborhood friends dropped her at the hospital and didn't care to see if she lived through the night. You know I;m very positive about my life, and all Iv been through really doesnt bother me. But then when I think about it as just a person, it breaks my heart. It doesn't bother me that I have to deal with all these challenges in life.
I just get scared, thinking about that woman dying in that bed. And no one cared enough to stick around, except her mother who flew miles to see her. This woman's own husband, couldn't even stand by her, even after a vow of death do us part. So it scares me to think, will I ever find someone whose not blood, who really will ever take anything near that vows to heart. People are not as strong as me, and you know I probably will never meet someone who is. But I know God is gonna challenge me on that :P Hes gona put someone so strong in my path, that I wont be able to break away. I just don't believe God yet lol. People ask how can I be okay with a person I vowed my love and life to, leaving me at the moment I needed him the most. Well, if he left me to die, then why do I want him in my life anyway. I dont. I survived. And he was to much of a coward to endure this journey. I dont have time to wonder why, all I know is that non of it was my fault, and I am not to blame. That I had a life to fight for. And my health to worry about and no time to wonder why he couldn't be everything he was suppose to be. Im a beautiful woman inside and out. Maybe a mess lol, but a beautiful one haha. And he wasn't man enough to stick by. So I guess I got to work extra hard from now on to weed out the men from the boys. Have to bring out tests of ultimate strength, Million questionnaire tests, lie detectors, set the dogs on them LOL :P If your gonnna stick with me be prepared to be unprepared lol. I warn people, but guess people dont believe me.
To me all this makes me stronger, thats a beautiful quality in me I think. Without all these life experiences, I do not know what type of person I would be, well Id probably be a person who takes life for granted, and lack self esteem. Im beautiful because of all of this, every scar and bruise has a story to remember and tell. <3
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