Keep On Walkin

Well I had a friend being tested and had gotten quite far in the process and it looked really hopeful..well a few days ago I got the dreaded phone call, that he was not a match....That kinda burst my bubble...But there is still hope. He and I opted to join the Paired Donation program so we will continue our workups and get on the list to hopefully find my match that way.....It sucks cuz he did not match but its still very hopefull with this option, I just have to be patient and wait....but in the mean time I am still having more friend start testing, cuz you never know someone could be my match.

Love is what its all about

                  I try to put a lot of thoughts into what I post,thats why it takes so long some times for me to come back and post haha.  Right now my health is pretty continuously the same; four days a week dialysis, take lots of medications and just stay home alot. 
Just so its clear kidney failure is not contagious lol......thats how it feels sometimes, people have alientated me from there life to the point that I really do not have a personal life anymore.It feels like people get so freaked out about hte situation I am in that they totally close me out. I think its kind of funny that people always say they  always pray and send good thoughts my way...but then people never call or want to hang out with me....ya that makes someone feel really loved....


On a more exciting note. :P So I went to the Breaking Dawn Part 2 opening night with my mom. I switched my dialysis because hte movie was on a Thursday night, I was not about to miss that movie hahaha. O-M-G that was by far the best movie of the whole series I think :D
Iv read all the books and the last book is my favorite, and they really an amazing job on the movie. I think I was near a heart attack on certain scenes haha. Seriously it was some intense stuff haha. I am ready to go see it again.

So today is Thanksgiving , yuummm I am ready to start eating all the delicious food :P Got dialysis in mid morning, then having another whole Thanksgiving feast Friday at my Aunts house, cant wait. I love spending time with the family,It helps me remember that I do have a small circle of love and support. I am grateful because with out my family I probably would not be here.No joke I was in a medicated coma May 2011 and the doctors had said I was going to die. But I pulled through thanks to the help and love of my family.

Be thankful for the people you do have in your life, and the days you have lived. You never know what is going to happen. 

Much love to alll and have a blessed and delicious days :p

Happy Veteran's Day

This weekend was Veterans Day, thats a really important day to me, not only do I like to remember all who have served, and celebrated my cousin SSG Frank J Gasper who was killed in action in 2008, but Veterans Day is also Franks birthday. I really do miss him so much, sometimes I act like hes not really gone just away on a mission He and I were really close.

Thank you to all the past and present service men and women.

HAPPY B-LATED 
VETERANS DAY

Caterpillars to butterflies

          Well life just keeps trucking along....sorry I'v been MIA.The fan on my laptop broke so I had to mail it away for repairs for a few weeks, I got it back and things have just been kind of busy. I'm alright no worries, just been caught up  with a bunch of things this last month. October is over, but its was eventful and wonderful month.I did a presentation at the Mexican Concilt Center about Organ Donation, turned 26 :p celebrated Dia de Los Muertos, and Halloween.Still on the search for that matching kidney.....

Sooo I volunteer with the Organ Donor Network when I get a chance to, they had me speak at the Mexican Concilt Center, promoting Organ donation to the Latino community. There is such a need for more people to be organ donors. People know about donating organs after your dead, but a lot of people do not think about donating while you are still alive. Everyone is born with two kidneys but you can live with one, your liver you can donate a piece as a living donor because the liver can regenerate itself. The body is so amazing. 

I turned 26 yikes I cant even believe that lol. I like to spend my birthdays with my extended family. Its an excuse to get together. One of my Aunts and my young teen cousins came for a visit. We drove to Santa Cruz visited the Monarch sanctuary near Natural Bridges.100,000 Monarchs make Natural Bridges there temporary home each winter from  mid-October through mid-February the Monarchs form a "city in the trees." Its so amazing to see them. And you never know what your going to get, they have life of their own so they choose whether they wanna come out and play or not :p It was a really great day. The weather was beautiful, after our visit to the sanctuary we went to the beach and tide-pools.  

Then the following weekend my mom and I planned to go to the Dia de Los Muertos celebration,because that's part of our culture, which I love so much. To welcome the dead home for a night. Well I got a lil surprise, lol I got a knock at hte door the morning of the celebration ......and it was my other Aunts and cousin. LOL omg I was so surprised. Totally not expecting them. haha So we got all painted up and walked in the parade and celebrated. 
I am so lucky to have such loving familia in my life. We always have so much fun, and I forget I am sick most of the time. lol though there's those moments where i get really tired and have to sleep, no avoiding that. Then we had Halloween did not do much for that just stayed home passed out candy.

So donor status, well I have one friend going through the process at the moment :) no word on if hes a match yet. He has not been ruled out yet still continuing the process so thats a good sign :D I have a feeling transplant is near. I just have to keep thinking positive and look forward. Its been almost two years now that I have been on dialysis. Dialysis is stable for the most part, have had some up and down moments lately just because they have to adjust my dry weight. I just have to dwell on the good moments and think about all the good things in life, and ignore all the crummy things going on in my life. I know I am a strong person and I have to be, I have no other choice but to be strong.If I'm not the alternative is to give up and face my maker.I know that not everyone could handle all the I have been through, and I would not wish anyone to ever have to. And everything doe happen for a reason, things surely are sucky right now, I'v lost alot of friends because they cannot handle the intensity of my life. So I get lonely sometimes enduring this rough path I live, but its all for a good reason...what that reason is right now I do not know lol but I'll figure it out eventually.  Kidney disease is a big part of my life, and always will be, I want to continue to help spread the word even after transplant. I want to spread the word of love and hope, and let people who are going through the same thing  know that things will get better. God has a plan for everyone and it will all happen in its own time. We just have to be patient, one thing I have not been good at lately. 
Lately I have been dreading going to dialysis, sitting in that chair four days a week for three hours as it sucks the life out of me.It dictates my life. I have to think this is only temporary. Happy thought, even when it seems impossible.
Please help spread the word about my needing a kidney, as well as about organ donation. 
https://www.facebook.com/pages/I-need-a-Kidney-DonorSave-Marina/291941610909908

Thank you all so much for your support. Lol so I will continue to write my blog, sorry it to ok so long.