Wondering

I think alot about how its gonna be when I get this second transplant. Its been twelve years since my last one, and I'm sure procedures have changed since then. I remember being in the ICU and being weighed in a hammock type strap because I couldn't walk yet, lol felt like a giant whale being lifted out of the water haha. I remember the ganciclovir antibiotic stinging as it went through the IV and then through my veins, I wonder if they will do that again, and if it will hurt as much. I remember being embarrassed because I could not read my new kidney and my bladder control was horrible, 13 and peeing my pants, how embarrassing, I wonder if my bladder control will be a lil more controlled . I wonder if my scar will be as big as the last.I remember shocking the docs as I started walking three days after surgery.One determined lil princess I was...I mean I AM :p I wonder if I will be as strong as last time. I wonder so much of how different it will be second time around in good and improved way. I know in my eyes this will be a piece of cake, because it beats doing what I have been going for the last year.